An idea..

Woke up in the morning, found my pillows tears soaked
Remembered again what got me provoked
I’ve been down and out now for a few days
Given up dreaming, the desire to chase.
I looked up at the date,
Said ‘That’s enough mate…!,’

It has been a crazy life
Lots of ups and down
For the last time looked up at the sky,
Kissed it goodbye, for
I’m gonna go down and die.

I’ve been ambitious , nothing quenched my thirst
Turned back to my friends, they were all lost
Tried to be tough,crumbled inside
When even the little girl, left my side.
Looked up at the sun, the weathers bad
I’ve got to go, not at all sad,

It has been a crazy life
Lots of ups and down
For the last time looked up at the sky,
Kissed it goodbye, for
I’m gonna go down and die.

Hope and happiness is all that I dreamt
None really understood what I really meant
So I wanna start it all over again,
In a new place in a new time, where things will be mine.
Tumbling ,crashing I want to disappear
Where I’ll be out of sight, out of mind and none will be near.

It has been a crazy life
Lots of ups and down
For the last time looked up at the sky,
Kissed it goodbye, for
I’m gonna go down and die.

I decide..

Until yesterday,
There seemed no sun in the sky
And everything tempted me to cry
I didn’t find any doors open, no lights coming through,
Couldn’t figure out whats next to do.

Then I made called upon a voice,
I wanted to know her choice,

I decided I didn’t care anymore,
Because I decide where s the shore
I decide whats right or wrong
And only I decide if I am going strong.
I decided that Ill decide
Im gonna face it and not going to hide.

There’s always fire when you need
Always light when your eyes are open
And you bother to heed
I didn’t mess up waiting for a miracle to come
In the nick of time she came along

I said, help me take the right decisions,
Which way to turn
Lessons to learn, just what am I supposed to do.

I decided I didn’t care anymore,
Because I decide where s the shore
I decide whats right or wrong
And only I decide if I am going strong.
I decided that Ill decide
Im not gonna run and not going to hide.

Today I feel the warmth of life
Remembering the puzzled me last night
Happiness crept into me slowly
who was she, who removed the melancholy.


Twas a hangover Ill never forget
Too many sweet delusions, I regret

Still,
I decided I didn’t care anymore,
Because I decide where s the shore
I decide whats right or wrong
And only I decide if I am going strong.
I decided that Ill decide
Im gonna face it and not going to hide.